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PleaseBelieveMe
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Posted: 9 September 2008 10:59 pm |
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I was diagnosed with anorexia at 15 and now I am 16. I am 5'3" and I went from 120lbs to what I weigh now--a stable 99.3lbs. Yes, that is underweight but I am not anorexic. I must sound like I'm in denial to all of you. Please, don't think that.
I do not have the thoughts of an anorexic, therefore I am not a full-blown anorexic. I just have the PHYSICAL signs of it, which DOES NOT mean that I am still anorexic. I believe that I have overcome my anorexia. My mind and heart believe it. I am not lying to myself and I am sure of that.
All my anxiety, depression, stress, pressure to eat a lot, being confused about this whole ordeal, anticipating college, wanting to make really good grades, and other overwhelming things are all factors of why I cannot eat that much.
I've been reading how the women feel about food, their bodies, their life....and I don't find myself connecting with them--I'm not relating to any of it. I love my body(the fact that it's there and I love how it used to be, not how skinny I am), I want to eat, I love life and want to continue with it, I want to be healthy and have muscle, I want to not feel nauseated all freaking day!!
My parents are not convinced. They think that I am in denial... Seriously? I'm not. I've been in treatment, I've done what I needed to do for myself, and I love ME. I thought about all of this for 2 weeks and 4 days. Today at school, during lunch time (which I eat in the counselors office) I ate half my sandwich, then just started crying. It was SO random. I was sobbing in no time and I could not eat anymore, I could not even lift it to my lips. It made sick...
Everything tastes different and smells different these days. And that crying spell? That has been going on for a while.
Yes, I do have depression and I am on medication. I also have really bad anxiety and I am on medication for that, too.
ANYWAY-- my mother did not want me to stay in school since I could not stop crying and my father(who does not understand ANYTHING at all) picked me up and immediately started berating me, which led to more tears.
How can I get them to understand that it is UNHEALTHY to FORCE yourself to eat?
That I should eat all that I can and then stop?
Yesterday I did not eat lunch at all and today I had half my sandwich and some of my pudding (at my scheduled snack time). That is better than yesterday. But it is never enough for them!!
It is going to take a while to build up eating more and more each day, and I need support--not chastising.
Any advice on the parental situation?
And, please, any advice on stimulating appetites.
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Tratra
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Posted: 10 September 2008 06:21 pm |
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| Have your parents been to counseling with you? When someone in the family has a disease...the whole family has it (so to speak), not just that person. Everyone needs to deal with this, not just you, so maybe some family counseling would help. I'm sure your dad is just frustrated that he doesn't know how to help you, so he berates you because he's mad at himself and feels helpless. As for stimulating your appetite...not really sure...I know when I lift weights, I'm starving all day! Could you try weight gaining shakes?
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DaniMae1
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Posted: 11 September 2008 12:22 pm |
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You really sound like you still have the thought patterns of an anorexic. You can't make your parents understand because they are your parents and they love you. Parents are like that ya know.  Be happy that they care. I have known people who couldn't give a flip about their own kids.
Why don't you try to just eat what you really like. There has to be something. That's a start.
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