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vgreet
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Posted: 6 February 2008 05:10 am |
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Hey MollyMoo,
Just checking in. It sounds like you are doing great! I hope the kickboxing videos work out for you. (No pun intended.  ) The economics of eating healthy are pretty interesting. It is nice to be able to have a gourmet meal at a reasonable price!
good night for now
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 7 February 2008 05:18 am |
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What would you do/where would you work if you could do anything you want for a living?
I am really depressed about the situation at my job and then really really feeling down on myself because I let one or two people there affect me so much. Today was a particularly bad day. My mind is a mess, I am having trouble making decisions or focusing. If only I weren't trapped there. Maybe something will open up in another area of the company so I could switch jobs without switching companies.
I had a workout tonight. My motivation was purely getting thinner so I can make a good impression for job interviews. I cried through the first part of it. 3miles: .5W 1.5J (new record) 1.0W. The scale moved, it was waiting for me to say something I guess. 180 today. I'll definitely be at my next target 179 soon.
I hope tomorrow is a better day. Its so hard to go face the demons. Off to shower now and fantasize about the question above.
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Theresa
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Posted: 7 February 2008 09:10 am |
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You have lost so much weight already even with stress in your life. You are an inspiration. You go girl! Well done so far.  I can't wait to get to 180lbs like you, my partner and I decided to go away for a weekend for every 20lbs I lose below 200lbs, so I am really eager to get to my 180lb mark.
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Beth
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Posted: 7 February 2008 03:36 pm |
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MM, you are not stuck! You can interview for a new job NOW. Just because you interview for a job doesn't mean you have to take it. You can also continue your quest to get lean and mean and interview later if you want to. What you have done is you've made a wise decision to stay put for awhile due to your family's needs. What you're suffering is merely a consequence of your decision. Sometimes we make decisions that are good and there are unpleasant consequences. It does not mean we are failures or that we are stuck. We just look at the good and the bad and make a decision that's best for us even if the result isn't 100% great. In this case, neither going or staying is 100% great. Staying is the most "great." So you've negotiated the best deal for today. That is a success, not a failure.
I've benefited enormously from two self hypnosis cd's, Mental Toughness by Neil Fiore and Enjoying Weight Loss by Roberta Temes. I ordered the weight loss cd and got the other one as a freebe. They came from the Hypnosis Network. I think Peter references the weight loss cd in the products section. Since you're doing everything else in your power to work through your situation, maybe you could add these and let them work in your head in the background. Could you take a cd to work and pop it into the player for 20 minutes at some point in the day? That would accomplish three things: 1) Do something restful and positive for 20 minutes and 2) Take yourself out of the line of fire of the "junk" at the office for 20 minutes 3) Enhance your weight loss and health program.
MM, you will be fine. Glad hubby is coming along.
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elliptical lover
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Posted: 7 February 2008 04:17 pm |
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hey Molly,
Sorry youre having a sucky day I hope things perk up for you soon. It seems that youre doing well with coping though....working out is a great way to relieve stress and vent your frustrations...just think, youre not turning to food!!!! You have won a BIG personal battle !!!!
I have had many frustrations at work...especially lately, even though i am out of work!!!! You will do fine. Youre a determined, go-getter, and no matter what weight youre at, a company would be CRAZY not to see that youre a potential asset to their company!!!!!
Keep up the good work, and keep your head up...dont let ANYONE bring you down. You will get thru this and you will be a better person because of it! Lots of ppl struggle with deciding what they want to do for a career....do something you LOVE, not something you HAVE TO DO.....it makes such a difference! And dont be afraid to go back to school if you have to for a job that you REALLY want....it will make your mind as healthy as youre getting your body!!!! Hang in there!
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vgreet
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Posted: 7 February 2008 06:01 pm |
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MollyMoo,
I'm sorry to hear how tough it is getting at work. I can tell by simply reading your posts how hard you work. I am certain you are a positive influence on many of the people you work with. You certainly have a positive influence on many of us at this site, and we don't even get to see you everyday! Search out those people. Not to stand around the water cooler and gossip or fish for compliments, but simply to be with people who appreciate who you are. It is super difficult not to let one or two people push you over the edge. Look for the positive each day. It can be difficult, but also rewarding. I am sure L will make a quick recovery, so go ahead and be on the prowl for a new position now. It won't hurt. It will also help give you an idea of what is out there and what will land you the position you deserve. You will make it. And the cool part, you'll be leaner and thinner in spite of everything you are dealing with! Good luck! 
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 7 February 2008 09:39 pm |
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Wow, I am truly humbled by your supportive comments. all. I am so lucky I found you and happy to be part of this community.
Today I spoke with and made an appointment with a development coach. We meet on Friday 22nd. This will give me enough time to prepare and determine exactly what I want to get out of working with him. I have told my boss about the difficulties I am encountering and have asked for coaching to help me through them. My hubby says I just need to watch the Godfather Part I and Part II and I will learn everything I need to know. Problem is, I am just not ruthless enough by nature to thrive in a highly political environment, and I don't WANT to have to become a slimeball just to do my job.
Theresa: That sounds like a great reward plan - a getaway every 20 lbs lost. So far my reward has been getting back into some clothes I haven't been able to wear in a couple of years. It's fun to have something different to wear without having to go to the mall and try to find stuff in my size. I think I'll save all my 20lbs up until I have all 80 and then I can take a trip to the UK or Ireland.
Beth: "You've negotiated the best deal for today. That is a success, not a failure." You are right and in the back of my mind I know this. I just can't understand what I have done to be targeted and bullied so I can't just come in and do good (great) job every day. The situation has harmed my confidence immensely and I think its probably apparent at least at times.
EL: "I have had many frustrations at work...especially lately, even though i am out of work!!!! " I am sorry EL and I know. We are not alone by any stretch. I would love to be at a point where I am financially secure and like what I do. If you have that and your health and your family, I think life is good.
vgreet: "Search out those people. Not to stand around the water cooler and gossip or fish for compliments, but simply to be with people who appreciate who you are. " Good advice. I know not everyone here despises me, it just feels like it right now.
Thanks again guys. I am having an unhappy afternoon again but I need to keep my chin up and just call it a day and get out of here. More later.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 8 February 2008 05:28 am |
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New Order Fan
youtube.com/watch?v=NbhF6kmkLoU "Hey Now What You Doing?"
OK, a little non-weight loss factoid about me. I've been a New Order fan for many many years. After my workout tonight I decided to go listen to some of their songs and visit neworderonline.com. The link is a song that helps me dig in when my negative thoughts are going off the deep end. I can't believe these guys are in their 50's now. It sure goes by fast. I wish they'd all get along again and finish releasing all the material that they recorded during the last album but never finished...So Bernard and Hooky if you are reading my diary, PLEASE make up. PLEASE. Thank you.
Had a decent workout tonight, I got up and got going after almost deciding to take the night off. First I did Wii bowling, boxing and tennis to get started maybe 1/2 hour. The 3 miles on the treadmill: .5W 1J .75W .5J .25W. I noticed tonight and the last couple of nights that I am jogging more "tightly". What I mean is, I am not blobbing loosely all over the place, I am more toned and athletic in my movements. Feels good. I am liking this. I am glad I didn't cheat tonight.
I am only at 700 calories for today and that includes a rice cake with tbsp of peanut butter I had at 2AM last night when I couldn't sleep. L made a fab dinner tonight: halibut with tequila lime marinade, yellow Zatarans rice and fresh steamed broccoli. It was so good!! I am so glad he is getting into making fish more often now. I will go have a snack its not really my intention to be so far under.
I am planning to work from home tomorrow which is just what I need, to get away from that toxic environment. Hopefully I can clear my head, put things back in perspective and focus on what is really important - my family.
TTFN
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DeterminedGal
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Posted: 8 February 2008 01:30 pm |
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Molly,
Attititude is 99% of the battle and you seem to be strong, so you're going to be fine. Keep up the great work. Rock on, sister!
DG
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 9 February 2008 06:02 am |
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Hey DG, I appreciate the support.
I was going to post earlier tonight but was really down in the dumps and didn't want to put another post about my angst. Suffice to say my #1 tormentor at work had a stellar day today at my expense. More tears.
No workout tonight its Friday my night off. Too bad it wasn't any fun. I got caught up on a few things like bills and starting to organize the substantial quantity of info, statements, lab tests, doctors recommendations etc. that we have already compiled for L's cancer.
Resolve: I've got to start looking for another job in the company
Resolve: I've got to keep sticking with my weight loss program (it's working!)
Resolve: Keep chin UP!!! Keep chin UP!! Keep chin UP!!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 9 February 2008 06:32 pm |
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Getting Back on Track and Hit a Milestone  
I am starting to feel a bit more back to my old self today. I am working on getting organized and making plans for the next several weeks. I realize that I am getting overwhelmed by the many things going on right now and as I said my head was getting muddled and I didn't have a firm calendar of all these appointments and trips and things that are coming up quickly the next couple of weeks. The jerk at work was just the icing on the cake that caused me to become really unravelled yesterday. My level of depression and anxiety AND uncontrollable bad thoughts scared me. I haven't been that bad since college. I have GOT to keep from going there again regardless of what happens [STOMPING FEET]. It is not good for L either to see me break down like that. I am stronger than I give myself credit for. I do need to seek out other oportunities in my company, I can do this by just reconnecting with people. The worst that could happen at work is that I could get squeezed out and they still would give me severance and I could get unemployment and have COBRA for insurance coverage. We'll be OK. Just have to remember "Molly MOOOOOOve any mountain"!!
I haven't eaten all that much the past couple of days due to all the stress. The scale is actually below 178 this morning. This means that I am quite sure that I am at my target of 179! And that's a whole week in advance of my target date of 2/17. DING-DING-DING-DING!! Now THAT's something to CELEBRATE! I haven't seen the seventies in quite a long time. NEXT TARGET: 169!!! TARGET DATE: March 15th!!! That's 5 weeks from today, 2 pounds per week.
This calls for a ticker update!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 9 February 2008 08:14 pm |
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Food Musings
So I am having lunch here and wanted to jot down some positive thoughts that floated through my head while I was making my tuna sandwich with raw apple and veggies on the side. Its rather amazing some of the changes I have made in 2008. I'd love to see your lists in your diaries if you feel like participating in this fun and motivating exercise:
Things I haven't had in 2008 and I don't feel deprived: Wine, ice cream, french fries, fast food burgers, cookies, baked goods, hot dogs, spaghettios with meatballs, ramen noodles, macaroni and cheese, pasta salad, refried beans, any kind of cream sauce.
Yummy things that I HAVE had but sensibly: Guinness, Walkers Crisps, controlled portions of Italian, Mexican, and pizza from our fave places.
Things I now enjoy that never or rarely used to pass my lips before: Mini carrots, grape tomatoes, apples, broccoli as a side dish, light cream cheese, fresh fish, green salad, turkey sausage, sugar free jello, fresh ground pepper, fresh ground sea salt, whole grain mustard, rice cakes.
New habits: Using measuring spoons/cups; weighing in daily, tracking everything I eat, keeping a diary and ticker on CPH, WORKING OUT 6 days a week [Popeye muscle flex again], eating/ordering out less, talking with people about my weight goals. Planning ahead for dinner esp. if we are going out so I can determine what portion size to eat to ensure that I will be within my cals for the day. Oh, and looking in the mirror!!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 10 February 2008 12:19 am |
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3 miles: .5W 1J .75W .5J .25W I am up to jogging on 4.2 and walking on 3.1/3.2 regularly. As I am getting stronger lighter and tighter my strides are getting a little longer. Well at only 5.2" I think 4.2 is a decent jogging pace right now...but I always surprise myself!
L was playing some Underworld just now so I got the bug:
youtube.com/watch?v=uK7QrVQa7vE
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Beth
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Posted: 10 February 2008 03:17 am |
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| MM, sounds like you are getting back on track. I was never too fond of office politics. Swam with the sharks a long time. Now I just tread water and do my own thing. You know they say you can never be too rich or too thin. I think the best revenge is getting lean and mean and looking absolutely fabulous- maybe rising above the fray and getting an absolutely fabulous new job at some point. Hold that head high! You can do it!
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vgreet
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Posted: 10 February 2008 04:44 am |
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| MollyMoo, just thought I'd let you know your food musings reminded me to take a look at how far I have come in 2008 and despite my super off track week, I am making progress. Thanks for sharing and inspiring!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 11 February 2008 12:33 am |
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I thought today would be an easy workout day having had a nice high calorie day yesterday to offset my lows. However it was tough. Muscle aches and stiffness I noticed yesterday were still there today, a little bit worse instead of better. I struggled and didn't jog as much as I planned but I did finish 3 miles.
3miles: .5W .5J .5W. .5J. 1W
Finished the taxes today, going to get a nice refund which is good timing.
vgreet I am glad that Food Musings provided a little lift...deep breath, bear down, and don't let your good habits get away from you. You have worked hard, keep it going!!
beth Thanks for the encouragement. I really appreciate it!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 12 February 2008 04:27 am |
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Another tough tonight, weird because I felt rather high energy, but my legs were just having a tough time. I was tempted to call it quits early but I get a for sticking it out and at least finishing my 3miles: .5W 1J .75W FailedJ .75W
I did do the jogging on 4.3 because the stride length felt good but I just struggled. Maybe the increased speed is what is causing the issues. Should be able to tell in a few days if it gets easier.
Today I spoke with our Global Marketing Director about a new position that is being created that may be open in a couple of months. Its a step backward but could be a position that I would hold for a couple of years that could lead to other things longer term. I should find out more about it in the next day or so.
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Beth
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Posted: 12 February 2008 10:37 am |
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| MM, sounds like you are on the right track and thinking "smart." Keep us posted!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 13 February 2008 01:55 am |
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I am taking the night off. Seem to be catching a cold. Had a good dinner, drinking juice now, planning to bed early. Night Night.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 13 February 2008 04:23 am |
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Greyhounds
Ha ha OK I am back. I tried to go to sleep and even took a Xanax but it didn't work so far. So, I begged the computer back from L for a bit. So for the benefit of anyone reading here's a bit more about one of my favorite topics - greyhounds!
L and I are the proud parents of 2 retired racing greyhounds. A 7YO Male and 4YO female. They are the most wonderful dogs. They sleep most of the time and require a lot less exercise than one would think. There is a reason that they are called the "45 Mile Per Hour Couch Potato". They have a good run and then they sleep for the rest of the day.
I am hoping at some point in my future to be able to buy a few acres of land and have more of them and also keep a sanctuary for those in need until they find homes. I guess this is my retirement dream since right now at the ripe old age of 38 I need to keep working a real job full time. I am always amazed by the folks I meet who devote so much personal time and energy into helping greyounds find homes when their racing careers are over. Our girl broke a leg racing and wouldn't be here except for a couple of angels who took her in and made her well again.
If you want to learn more about greyhound adoption or greyhounds don't hesitate to PM me. I know a little bit about a lot of things; here in the US as well as a bit about the situation in Ireland. I can point you to websites as well.
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vgreet
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Posted: 13 February 2008 04:58 am |
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MollyMoo,
Hope you get to feeling better! Good luck with the job too! I am sure that if it is the right thing, it will work out. I used to have a dog that was half whippet. Not exactly a retired greyhound. Alright, a long way from it, but I understand the 45 mile an hour couch potato thing! Sounds like a good plan to me. Love the dogs. Hope you get caught up on your rest!
V
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 14 February 2008 03:52 am |
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Bat Outa #%@&!
Drove home like a madwoman in bad traffic trying to get home early enough to workout and shower before meeting some friends for dinner. 3 miles: .5W .5J .5W .5J .25W .25J .5W I am glad that the prospect of missing my workout made me agitated. I need to keep up with the routine, especially after missing last night!
Dinner with L and our friends was at a mediterranean place. Kind of tough finding any calorie information online for chicken Kiboodeh 1/3 cup (max) and dill rice 2/3 cup. I am trusting it can't have been too bad. (?) I am assuming there is no way it was more than 450.
Still waiting for my videos to arrive. Still struggling with the workouts. Think I am managing to fight the cold. Tummy not feeling well but that's probably just stress-related, who knows.
I learned more about the Finance Manager job opening. Its not my dream job but I think it would be OK to do it and broaden my experience. I would need to make sure that I would have a mentor in the role while I am getting up to speed. Its a new position and they haven't figured out where it will be reporting yet and the job description (in draft form) is vague. But I am going to find out more.
I also saw a job online with another company that I may put in a resume for just to get some practice interviewing. I don't know. I KNOW I should start doing this but I have so many irons in the fire right now...
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vgreet
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Posted: 14 February 2008 04:25 am |
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| Wow MollyMoo! You really do have a lot going. I'm impressed with you getting the workout in on a busy night when you are still sick. I would have skipped it. Go for the interview. Once you have made up your application it will be easier to send out others.
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hoofprints
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Posted: 14 February 2008 04:48 pm |
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mollymoo24 wrote:
Resolve: I've got to start looking for another job in the company
Resolve: I've got to keep sticking with my weight loss program (it's working!)
Resolve: Keep chin UP!!! Keep chin UP!! Keep chin UP!!
Look at you, I read your ciary and can see that you have kept up all of these resolves, isn't it neat how when you take the time to write down a goal or resolve...it's like it is set in stone. You are making it happen. Go for the job, it's scary, but you might really like it!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 15 February 2008 02:38 am |
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Thanks vgreet I think it was just a raincheck on a cheat night because I got home late from work tonight and had pizza and leftovers and have a lot of reading to do tonight to get ready for Lee's Dr. consult tomorrow. Ah well. As long as I work out tomorrow AM it will be good enough since Friday's my normal night off. My videos did come today as well but I have to find the right time to try them.
And thanks hoofprints for your remarks. I really have been 'all over the place' mentally and emotionally for the past week or so - its helpful to boil it down to a few key guiding principles.
As does Beth, I value my moments of clarity...they can be very painful, but I can choose to learn from them and take action - or do nothing and be in the same boat 6 months from now. So yes writing it down helps because I can't forget it or deny it or think perhaps it wasn't so bad. I've been a victim at work for too long, and too scared to do anything about it, but I can't live the rest of my life this way. Sounds like weight loss really - it's all about taking control of your life and getting what you want out of it.
I think I just talked myself into doing at least some calisthenics tonight! Yay!
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vgreet
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Posted: 15 February 2008 05:56 am |
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 PIZZA
It is good stuff! Just not so good for losing weight. You splurge pretty rarely. If you doubt it just check my diary again! You went and worked out and another workout will do wonders for you. I hope the videos work for you. Let me know. Let me know about L's appt too! Good luck!
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Beth
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Posted: 15 February 2008 04:25 pm |
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| I want to hear how you're doing and also about L's appointment. Hope you're having a good day.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 15 February 2008 05:37 pm |
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Thanks Beth and vgreet for checking in and asking about L. This is a consult with an oncologist and then we meet another surgeon on Monday. Right now just getting additional opinions on treatment options. And now...
"Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha hee heeeee"
Thus would the reaction if anyone had seen me trying to do the Denise Austin low impact aerobic workout today. I am so glad I can laugh at myself.
I've not really had an aerobics class or tried to follow an aerobics video before. Its going to take me a while to learn the moves. I finally figured out that I should just try to learn the footwork first. As soon as I'd start getting a handle on her sequencing - she'd switch! I know I will get the hang of it after a few times but it WAS really funny. What a klutz!  I did get my heartrate up some and felt the burn at times.
Before the aerobic session I did Denise's upper body and lower body workouts (also low impact version) and that was really cool. I got some muscles going that I don't use when I am just doing the treadmill. I love it, it feels so good to be waking up my body to LIVE again.
Altogether I know I didn't burn enough cals in a 20 minute low impact psuedo aerobic session so I have to get in some more exercise later. But it was fun doing something new!
Oh, and reminder to myself - get back to eating more veggies, this week I slipped a little into reaching for easy or comfort foods instead of the veggies. Scale is back up to 180 this AM; I've had a lot of salty foods; don't think I have actually gained but don't think I lost either this week. I think I lost a little momentum and need to get it back, I let work distract me again this week, DARN IT!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 16 February 2008 02:07 am |
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Oncologist Says
Biopsy slides were reread by a different lab, same result. L at 42 is young - they'd recommend surgery if he's a good candidate; radioactive seeds if he is not. Glad that we have directional guidance that matches the original urologist. More info on Monday, we have an appt with a primo surgeon then.
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Hisgal
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Posted: 16 February 2008 04:49 am |
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Mollymoo,
Thanks for the update on L.............keep us posted. Will keep him in my prayers.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 16 February 2008 03:27 pm |
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More Slips - Help!
OK, enough with the excuses here.
I was 'good' all day yesterday including eating LOTS of veg and having a nicely controlled salad/pasta portion meal out. Around 8PM L wanted to go to the Irish place near our house for some music and a beer and I wanted to get out too. I had enough cals left for 1 Guinness. But L was having such a good time we stayed for 3 hours and during that time I decided it wouldn't be the end of the world to have another Guinness. OK that's true.
This probably would have been fine if afterward I had just come home and gone to bed but I was STARVING by the time I came home and the leftover pasta/herb bread portion was sitting there waiting for me. Nothing like a 400 calorie midnight snack. This is 2 nights in a row where getting into restaurant leftovers caused me to really blow out my calorie count. Friday was 1600 and Saturday was 1700. Combine this with a slowdown in exercising and a slowdown in veg consumption and its apparent that I am sliding toward some sort of relapse.
So, today's resolves:
1. 1000 Calories
2. 1 hour treadmill + 10/10 upper/lower workout
3. Grocery shopping - refill the fridge with HEALTHY options
4. Get organized for next weeks' trip so I am not stressing over it
5. Take care of notes and bills and get them off your mind
Get back on the wagon! Don't lose your grip on all the healthy changes you've made!
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Beth
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Posted: 16 February 2008 04:24 pm |
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MM, I understand. I made a profound decision last night that I can't handle restaurants. I am tooooo addicted to food. If I want to lose weight, I will just have to stay away from restaurants just like I'd have to stay away from bars if I were an alcoholic. I just can't handle it. It's too much of a trigger right now.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 17 February 2008 04:28 am |
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1. 1000 Calories: Yes
2. 1 hour treadmill + 10/10 upper/lower workout: Yes + Yes
3. Grocery shopping - refill the fridge with HEALTHY options: Yes
4. Get organized for next weeks' trip so I am not stressing over it: Mostly; I need to go to the mall tomorrow and get some new shoes and 1-2 new tops.
5. Take care of notes and bills and get them off your mind: Yes
Not a bad day, that's roughly a 1000 calorie deficit. Perhaps writing down goals this specific helps me keep my accountability - 1 day at a time.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 17 February 2008 10:35 am |
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Can't sleep so here I am again. It's 4:30AM; I've been up for an hour.
Looked back to see the earliest I have digital photos of myself - 2001/2002. I was still heavy back then, probably around 160, but I can see how my legs were a lot better, more muscular, shapely. Reminds me that there is a loooong way to go in this thing because there is a looonng way to go to get even to that 160 mark!!
I forgot to put down my treadmill portion of my workout today 3.25: .5W .5J the rest walking. I tried to do more jogging but just couldn't get it going. Dont' know if this is because I did the upper/lower workouts first and used up my leg muscles that way. It frustrating because I was doing so well on the treadmill and now I can't seem to sustain my jogging.
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Beth
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Posted: 17 February 2008 11:37 am |
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| I thought I was the only person with insomnia surfing the web during the wee hours...
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 17 February 2008 04:32 pm |
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Quiet Time
The house is blissfully quiet right now and I am enjoying a large mug of Starbucks while L is having a long sleep-in. There is nothing like this quiet peace; I feel more happy, more fulfilled, and less anxious than my everyday self. Too bad that these moments are so rare in this life...
The weather/outside conditions right now are remarkable - it is thick overcast and grey, but "water" is the word. Woke up and it was gently raining. Add water from the snow that is melting off the roofs due to the warm-up. The ground is still frozen so there is a sheet of compacted snow/ice on the ground covered by a couple of inches (in spots) of cold cold water. My yard is not a yard, it is a swimming pool.
Yesterday I did the 10/10 upper/lower DVD combo (low impact) and then got on the treadmill for an hour. I really had a hard time with my jogging, just not enough energy in my legs and overall. I also stiffened up a lot after yesterday's workout and in particular my legs have a steady dull ache to them. I don't know if this is just normal for increased activity or if I could have overdone it.
Its Sunday so I need to have a good workout this morning. It's extremely important that I get good workouts on both Sat and Sun because I have the time and also in case I end up working late during the week and miss a day.
Later I will go shopping for some new shoes and possibly some biz casual clothes for this trip. It will be interesting to see if I get into a straight 16 now, I certainly will get into a 16W without a problem. I am swimming in the 18-20 pants I got at Avenue 8 weeks ago. I am still carrying the weight mostly in my belly, rear, and upper thighs but the exercise has helped tone quite a bit. Will post results later - good or bad!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 17 February 2008 05:51 pm |
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Finally - a good treadmill workout again!! Thank goodness. Hurray!!!!! 3 miles: .5W 1J .5W .25J .25W .25J .25W total J 1.5
Observations:
My heart rate was a little lower - maxing in the 150's (don't know why but this may have made it a little easier)
My bod felt a little tighter and my legs felt stronger. The dull ache was gone really quickly so that's a great sign.
Could this have anything to do with having a lower cal day yesterday or possibly WHAT I ate as well?
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Beth
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Posted: 18 February 2008 01:38 pm |
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| Isn't it wonderful to rise above the mucky muck and do what you need to do. I think staying focused is a huge part of being successful at weight loss. I used to have a Nike T-shirt that said, "Just do it!" What words of wisdom!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 18 February 2008 10:46 pm |
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Chipotle Mexican Grill (Smacks forehead)
How can a burrito with only 3 types of salsa, rice, black beans, tortilla, and pork be 1067 calories? I don't add cheese, or sour cream, or guac. Disgusting. Or...maybe the reason it is so disgusting is because I ate 2/3 and brought the rest home....and then rummaged and finished it 45 mins later. Counting breakfast, I was over cals for the day by 1:30PM. 
Well I am flying to Orlando tonight which will throw me off kilter. I'll try packing some trusty carrot sticks and a rice cake in my bag so if I do snack it will be light. Going to a sales meeting where there is always food everywhere. Hope I keep my head on my shoulders!! FOCUS!! I probably will not post for a few days but will catch up when I get back.
BTW I never made it shopping yesterday, there was so much water blocking the way to both of our cars that without waders it was going to be a challenge.
Talk to ya'll soon!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 21 February 2008 04:55 am |
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Back home
Well I wasn't completely perfect but I did pretty darn well while on my trip. I managed to do about a 3 mile walk yesterday (3 times around the huge hotel complex). Tried jogging, but with the breeze and not being used to pavement I wasn't able to sustain it for very long. Had fish or turkey, salads (only small amount of dressing), fruit along with small amounts of cheese, bagel, light cream cheese. No desserts. Didn't even feel tempted!! Did have a glass and a half of wine but that's all - not bad at a 5-hour dinner and drinks affair. I can't remember the last time I hung out in a bar with a glass of water.
I weighed in at 176 tonight, its movement in the right direction! These size 16 pants are getting a bit loose!
I am emotional again today. It's work, coupled with TTOTM almost here. Ah well, I hate sounding like a broken record. I am just going to hug my  and wish all the bad people away. I meet with my development coach on Friday. Wish me luck, I am praying that this is a good choice.
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zenobia
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Posted: 21 February 2008 05:48 am |
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Molly~
I have been really meaning to catch up on your diary. i skimmed through it, but am dying for the chance to read it all the way through. as i was skimming, i came across this gem- The house is blissfully quiet right now and I am enjoying a large mug of Starbucks while L is having a long sleep-in. There is nothing like this quiet peace; I feel more happy, more fulfilled, and less anxious than my everyday self. Too bad that these moments are so rare in this life...
oh my how that hit home. i know exactly what you mean. like everything is right with the world. i can never pinpoint what it is when those feelings hit, but i know i love them so very much. thank you for reminding me that a person can feel that way once in a while. i am hoping to get one of those moments soon.
thanks a million, molly!
~zen
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Beth
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Posted: 21 February 2008 08:09 am |
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Good luck with the development coach. Sounds like what you are doing is a good compromise for now with some promise for later. Life is short. We need to be happy when we can! There are so many ups and downs anyway. Why make yourself go to a "down" everyday!
You really did well going on a business trip and exercising and eating right. I'm serious. That is an accomplishment!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 22 February 2008 02:39 am |
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Zen, thanks for telling me that, its so nice that my quiet time gave you a little lift. May you have a 'moment' soon....many of them...that feeling of being more at peace with the world.
Hey Beth thanks! It feels pretty good having gone through that without any major gaffes, then also getting back and having a 1000 calorie today with a good workout tonight.
3 miles: .5W 1J 1W .25J .25W - hit 4.7mph on that last jogging lap, that's a new high for me!
And tomorrow is Friday!! We are going out to the Irish place again with some friends for the AYCE fish fry. : ( Not my idea of a healthy dinner - I hope they have other things to eat that aren't fried. Well I will eat a salad before we go, and I suppose a little bit of the fish cant be so terrible if I can eat around the coating.
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Theresa
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Posted: 22 February 2008 09:52 am |
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You are doing so well on a constant basis Molly Moo! Looking at your diary since January you have lost 24lbs over approximately 8 weeks. That is awesome!  Well done and keep it up.
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Beth
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Posted: 23 February 2008 04:02 am |
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| MM, hope all went well at the restaurant. I'm sitting here hoping you didn't fall into the fish frier. Take care!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 23 February 2008 05:18 am |
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I did OK. Only about 300 cals for breakfast and lunch. Came home from work and had a salad before heading to the fish fry. Picked off all the coating and just had the fish (with a bit of yummy tartar sauce); peas, and a few french fries. 2 Guinness. Friends, conversation, atmosphere. A great night!
Tonight the polish cleaning lady at the office stopped me and in broken english noticed how much weight I have lost, esp in my face. Thank you lady! dziekuje!
As far as meeting with the development coach, it was interesting. I told him a bit about myself, then I told him about my tormentor and the problems I am having. He has run into this before. He is going out of town; he is going to think about what I shared with him and will call me next week with some ideas/options. There was an amazing moment when he said "Do me a favor. Let ME worry about this for you for a couple of days". What an amazing thing to say, the weight just lifted for a few minutes. I've got to try to do that this weekend.
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Beth
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Posted: 23 February 2008 01:44 pm |
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 23 February 2008 05:45 pm |
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Moooooving 
3.5m = .5W 2.0J 1W Yay a whole 2 miles straight jogging (new best), a mile at 4.1, then 3 laps a 4.3 and the last lap on 4.7. That totally rocked. Sweated really well too.
I felt strong from the minute I got on the treadmill. L thinks the carbs from the beer last night helped. I don't know. But I sure am happy about a good workout.
I am glad the sun is out finally today too. That surely helps.
I think my butt is finally losing a little bit of fat. It doesn't seem to be jutting out QUITE as far. Scale said 175 this AM again which is 2 days in a row so I am going to gratify myself with a ticker update. I am really glad to see that BMI coming |
