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Posted: 26 September 2008 12:24 am |
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Obviously, this is the first entry in my diary. For those of your who did not read my introduction, I will try to put my goal in a nutshell. I have gone from being chunky to being slim, but I am not satisfied with having just a nice body, I want to have an astounding body. I want a body that looks absolutely top-of-the-line. So basically, I have gotten the BASIC shape that I want, and now I am working with getting the EXACT form that I want. I want to be very lean and sculpted, able to wear anything, and I mean ANYTHING without having to think about any little roll or cellulite or pudge or what have you. And I want to acheive this goal in a healthy, sustainable way.
A few days ago a good friend of mine sent me an e-book called "The Truth About Abs," because one of the things I really want is a nice, sculpted, sexy midsection. But the e-book was more than just about abs, it was about how to get what I really want, which is a cut body. I found a lot of the information very useful, and this is the second day I have put it into action.
The basics of what the-book said (and I would be more than happy to send anyone the file, because I think it was extremely useful) was that a diet of natural and healthy food should be maintained 6 days a week while one day a week is considered a "go-crazy" day where you can eat whatever you want, that workouts lasting from 45 minutes to an hour should be done 3 - 4 times per week, that food should be eaten every 2 hours or so throughout the day, and that the vast majority of the workout should include moving the whole body in as much range of motion as possible, using weights. The e-book stated that if someone wants to get really lean really fast, no "white carbs" should be consumed, this means basically that all the carbs one is getting should come from fruits, vegetables, legumes, etc, no bread or grain or refined sweets (besides fruit, if you could fruit as a sweet, and also honey, raw sugar, molasses, etc. are OK). The e-book also recommended having green tea with your first three meals of the day. The e-book also went into how important attitude is, how important it is to visualize the body you want, and really feel the joy of having that body now, and to know, like really know that it WILL be your body, and indeed already IS your body, you just have to do a bit of uncovering. This may sound a bit out-there to some, but I really enjoy that whole mental hacking strategy, and I have used it on many other things in my life and have seen superb results from it, so I definitely liked to see this e-book talk about it. (For those of you who had heard of the Law of Attraction or seen or read The Secret, this should ring a bell).
I do not have a specific weight or pants size in mind, really, I just have an image of how I want my body to look. I am imagining I probably want to lose somewhere between 10 - 40 pounds of fat and put on 10 - 40 pounds of muscle, but that is just an estimation. Again, the number isn't important, what matters to me is the way my body looks when I am wearing my birthday suit (or something close to my birthday suit!)
I did not take my stats yesterday as far as specific weight goes, but I can tell you that I am currently a size 8 - 10 in pants. I weighed myself this morning (and I am indeed blessed to have a really cool scale that also measures body fat) and my total weight was 156.2 with a body fat percentage of 32.9%. This means that my body is currently composed of about 51.39 pounds of fat and the rest is water and "lean tissue" (bones, muscle, mammary tissue, brain tissue, skin, etc.)
Yesterday, I ate about 1300 calories and my food intake consisted of the following: (Please note that all times are "ish")
10:00am: raw apple
12:30pm: cottage cheese with macadamia nuts and cut-up banana (really good! Would have been better with honey, which I forgot to buy, but still really good).
2:00pm: finished the rest of the cottage cheese/nut/banana mixture and some green tea
4:00pm: raw carrot and some beef jerky
6:00pm: raw plum and some sesame/almond crunch-snack-things
For my workout, I didn't come anywhere NEAR to getting in 45 minutes. I did about 10 minutes and then I was really, really pooped. But I did get in some superhard cardio, doing mountain climbers--which are great as far as bang for your buck and I also did a bit of stretching, some ab exercises, and some weight-liftiing. Again, like I said, not a long workout, but it's better than what I had been doing, which was basically really wimpy cardio stuff and isolated weight lifting, both of which, according to the e-book are super-#%@&! for getting an overall cut appearance. So, we'll see. That was yesterday, and I don't work out today, really, although I did some yoga, but I will make sure I add at least a minute onto my workout tomorrow.
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Okay, lol, as I was writing that, i thought shoot, I should do another workout, just do it today since I only did 10 minutes yesterday. So now, I have completed today's 12-minute workout, and I am sweating as I write this and I am sure my neighbors wondered what I was doing because I made a lot of noises that probably sounded sexual, but man, the exercises I learned from that book are super hardcore, I mean you are breathing hard by the end of the first 30 seconds and by the end of the first minute, you are sweating. But that's what I like!
And for my food intake today, I had:
8:00am raw carrot, salami, and green tea
11:00am raw almonds, raw plum, green/yerba mate tea
1:00pm cottage cheese with Tapatio, sesame-almond crunch snack, green/yerba mate tea
I plan to have an apple at some point and then my boyfriend is coming over, so we will probably have some wine.
I must say that I feel pretty good, and I have been okay with not eating any bread/cereal products. They say that once you start eating a lot of healthy food you stop craving junk food. I am pretty pleased because I was seriously eating candy and fast food every day and feeling like I really had to have it in order to feel satisfied.
I also did my morning meditation and journaling in my private journal, and I think that really helps me to stay focused on my goals and how to get there. And even though I know they say that you don't really lose weight in a day, I still can't wait to get on the scale tomorrow morning and see what it says!
Last edited on 26 September 2008 09:17 am by Straylight
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Straylight
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Posted: 26 September 2008 01:42 am |
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Okay, felt motivated to dance a bit because the breaks were so good.
I think that either 3 cups of green tea a day is too much for me OR the yerba mate that I mixed in the green tea is too much for me or the combination thereof is too much for me, because I have sort of a jittery, slightly nauseated feeling and I don't like it.
I don't have any more yerba mate, so tomorrow, I am going to just have the green tea and see if that problem gets eliminated.
Also, I feel sort of horny, stimulants do that to me. I am glad my sweetie is coming over because I will probable burn some good calories with him lol tmi probably but oh well!!! it's my diary, baby!
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Posted: 26 September 2008 07:53 am |
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Well, day two is drawing to a close now. I actually did not drink any wine tonight with my sweetie, instead I had a carrot, some cottage cheese, and some macadamia nuts. I will be ending the day with a 560 calorie deficit, which is awesome! I am really excited to see if there is any change on the scale tomorrow. I know one day is not much to see change, but it IS possible!
So, in the last two days, since I started this new program, I have had a 1,450 calorie deficit, which is about .42 pounds. Not bad for two days! That's according to the abstract math, we will see what the scale has to say tomorrow.
And also, incidentally, I felt pretty fantastic all day, and I got a lot accomplished. I snaked the drain the bathroom, bought a sage bowl, bought some other items I needed around the house, mailed a book I sold on ebay, exercised, meditated, wrote, and got to hang out with my sweetie (and hear from one of my other sweeties WOO HOO!) I need like a collection of sweeties. No, actually, I only want three, the ones I've got, lol! I guess I could use more. Can never have too many men or too much money, i say. 0_o
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Posted: 26 September 2008 08:18 am |
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hi straylight.
lol- i like that philosophy about never too much money or men. i also like your diary. i hope you stick around and find this place helpful!
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Straylight
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Posted: 26 September 2008 09:19 am |
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Dude I think I am addicted to this site already!
It's great! I am always looking for new things to get addicted to (seriously!)
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Posted: 26 September 2008 06:08 pm |
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Oh YES! Praise the gods, when I got on the scale this morning, I found that I had lost .66 pounds of PURE FAT since yesterday! I am so glad I have that scale that measures body fat as well as pounds. 2/3 of a pound in just one day! And I know it was FAT, not water or muscle! WOO HOO!!!!
I also took my measurements this morning and my waist is 32.5 inches and my hips are 42.25 inches. Sheesh, talk about hourglass--it's hard for me to find pants that fit. Any pants that fit over my big fat #%@&! are too big around the waist. Somebody told me that applebottom jeans are good for this type of figure--Costa Rican build all the way.
As an aside, I went into American Apparel and I can always buy shirts there, but pants are a different story. Even the jumbo size don't fit me at all. And my sweetie said
"don't worry their pants aren't made for women with your assets. What they need is a Latin American Apparel."
I thought that was a nice thing to say but really, it would be nice to squeeze this culo into at least the XL stuff at the little white girl shops! Or maybe it just won't ever happen, who knows. They DO need a Latin American Apparel #%@&! it!
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Posted: 26 September 2008 07:15 pm |
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Good job on your loss, Straylight, and welcome to  ! I've seen you post a bit around here - you have a good sense of humor. I like that.
Good luck! 
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Posted: 26 September 2008 07:55 pm |
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Whew! Now it's already mid-day, I think, and I have to go walk some papers to the car servicing place. It's blazing hot out, I can't wait until I get back so I can tan and read my book (Science of Mind, excellent book, highly recommended if you want to learn mental hacking).
Anyway--an interesting thing I have noticed is that I am really not hungry--it's amazing. And I am not taking any diet pills or anything, the only thing is that I have been drinking green tea. It's crazy though, usually by this time of day I would be feeling really hungry and craving some nachos or something, but I am actually fine. I think I need to make myself eat something, so I will probably have something when I get back from that walk to the auto place. Maybe something calorie dense like an avocado and cheese. Mmmmm, that sounds really good!
Oh yes, AND my ex called me and is coming over to hang out so I will probably crack open the wine with him, since I didn't open it last night. I get to add another sweetie to the list, so that's awesome. I am telling you, this new program is all kinds of good luck. It's raining men, hallelujah!
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Posted: 26 September 2008 07:59 pm |
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CrimsonAnimus wrote: Good job on your loss, Straylight, and welcome to ! I've seen you post a bit around here - you have a good sense of humor. I like that.
Good luck!
Thanks! I am a social worker so I have to have a good sense of humor to get through the day! Sometimes I see and hear #%@&!e I never wanted to see or hear, but you learn to laugh about it, although my humor can be really dark--what do they call that, gallow's humor I think.
And it helps to be able to laugh at yourself too.
lol, there is a line from one of my favorite shows, Absolutely Fabulous, where Patsy (one of the main characters says)
"Darling if you want to find out the meaning of life, you're better off downing a bottle of whiskey, that way you'll be unconscious before you start to take yourself too seriously."
Love it!
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Posted: 26 September 2008 08:05 pm |
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Anyway--an interesting thing I have noticed is that I am really not hungry--it's amazing.
I'm sure your increased fiber intake has played a part in that, along with getting rid of the refined sugar in your diet. It has certainly helped my appetite!
And it helps to be able to laugh at yourself too.
This is one of life's greatest secrets, and a lesson that everybody should learn. Life is too short not to laugh.
It's raining men, hallelujah!
Where?!? I don't ever recall seeing this particular weather condition in my local forecast. Regardless, I'm sure the weather has to be pretty HOT for it to occur. 
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Posted: 27 September 2008 01:32 am |
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All right, well i went to trader joe's to pick up some good organic fruit and some good snack and meal items. I love Trader Joe's--it's awesome for cool food and good prices.
After the carrots and almonds that I ate in the morning, I had:
-a handful of root vegetable chips (very delicious snack from Trader Joe's, no trans fats AND a good ratio of fiber to other carbs.) For any sort of carby item that I eat, I make sure that it has at least 1.5 grams of fiber for every 10 grams of carbs it has.
-a bowl of cottage cheese with banana and honey (what a treat!)
-some salami, cheddar cheese, and an apple (great combination, soooo good!)
And I will probably have some more cheese later with the wine, and I will still have a really good calorie deficit of around 500 if all goes well!
At the auto shop, it must have been sorta slow because the dudes were all playing cards when I got there, so I asked if I could play a hand. It was a game I never heard of called "Con Quien." I asked if we could make a wager and they could charge me 5 bucks more for my car servicing if I lost and I could pay them 5 bucks less for the car servicing if I won. The boss said no, and advised us to just play for fun, but next time I go there, I am bringing some money. They say they play cards a lot.
And then I went sunbathing and worked on my tan, which is getting pretty superdark. People have been noticing and making nice comments about my skin tone, which is cool.
And I also dropped in to see my friend Nahid who works at the local 99 cent store, so I had a pretty #%@&! good day, lots of walking, I walked about two miles just around town getting errands done, so that was cool.
Since I worked out yesterday and the day before, I probably won't work out today.
I was thinking about doing a colon cleanse based on someone's posts on here. I have eaten so much horrible #%@&! over the years I am sure there is a disaster in my insides. I need to get more information from that chick. I need to find her on here.
Has anyone else ever done a colon cleanse? What did you use and what were your results?
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Posted: 27 September 2008 03:59 am |
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Had to come check out your diary since you were peeking in mine. You are funny!
Did you ever get to try the applebottom jeans?
What is your goal for body fat %?
I like the sweetie's quote about the clothing store not being made for women with your assets. HA!!!
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Posted: 27 September 2008 05:34 am |
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Yeah that sweetie is a good one! He's awesome.
You look like you are Latin American, are you?
I have never tried applebottom jeans, but I really should. Clash jeans also look good on me too (those are sold at a little barrio roperia by my house. I think applebottom jeans may be real expensive, but I have never even priced one, so....? that's supposedly what J Lo wears?
I want my body fat percentage to be no higher than 19%, that's what I have heard you need in order to have a supercut appearance, but not lower than 16% so I still hold onto all my assets!
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Posted: 27 September 2008 08:52 am |
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Okay so now my date is over and I am really glad because it was supercool to see that guy AND we got really far in Silent Hill. WOO HOO!
Not much of a calorie deficit today, probably only about 200 or so, but still, it's a deficit, and I am glad! I even did some snacky stuff I didn't plan on doing like having another serving of those AWESOME root vegetable chips that I bought and I still have a 200 calorie deficit! Once again, can't wait to see what the scale says tomorrow! Should see some more good news there...
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Posted: 27 September 2008 02:34 pm |
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A colon cleanse? You mean like a detox or going to a spa place and having a tube placed up your apple bottom with water to push everything out?
Nope, I'm a white girl....well French with a little bit of Native American thrown in there. My fiance was attracted to me BECAUSE he thought I was Latin American. He is cuban!
I read earlier something about having a costa rican figure? Is that your nationality?
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Posted: 27 September 2008 05:08 pm |
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haha shoved up your apple bottom, you're funny! Gross!
No, I mean like taking supplements that clean out your colon. There is a chick name Dianna or something like that that posted about it on here. She used something called ACOG or something like that (I would have to cross-check with her posts), and I am thinking of ordering those herbs--I checked them out, and I know a bit about herbs as I have done some studying on herbal healing, and the herbs all were sounding familiar as far as beneficial herbs in the formula used in the supplements she talked about. As long as the pills are reasonably priced, I will probably go for it. I mean really, I have eaten a LOT of fast food and just veritable junk over the years and it would be nice to clean my system out and detoxify. I just need to do some research and find out more about the supplements.
Yeah, you look very Latina in that picture--wouldn't have guessed French really but yeah I would agree with your boyfriend, I would have thought you were browner than brown lol!!! I AM Costa Rican, only half on my mother's side on my father's side he was from the UK. I was actually adopted though and I was raised by some regular WASP parents (who are awesome and I love them!) However, my adoptive father, even though he is a total white boy, grew up in East LA in a barrio and he speaks Spanish fluently just from being around Latinos all the time growing up and then living in Cuba for a while himself. I have been to Costa Rica only once and I love it. I plan to move there in the next two years or so with one of my sweeties (or maybe all of them, ha! have a harem like King Fracking Solomon) and be a healer. It is a beautiful, beautiful country and the people there are pretty politically active and stand up for themselves. They recently threw a president in jail because they thought he was being unjust. That's as impressive as the Venezuelans! (por la gente!) I wish Americans would stand up for themselves more. We bend over and take so much from our government, especially NOW with all the terrorist-fear #%@&! being drilled into us every day.
But in other news, and this is big BIG news-- I got on the scale this morning AND took my measurements, and I lost another .66 pounds since yesterday AND a whole inch off my waist, which I don't know how that's possible in just one day but it happened! And again, I know the weight loss was pure fat because I have a scale that measures body fat and water percentages.
So that makes a total of 1.32 pounds of fat lost and an inch lost from my waist in just three days. I am amazed, I am overjoyed, I cannot tell you how happy I am about this! It is so encouraging. I mean, really with those kinds of numbers, that is .44 pounds a day, which makes 13 pounds a month. Those are some good-lookin' numbers let me tell you.
Every morning has been a celebration up in here since I started this new diet/exercise program.
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Posted: 27 September 2008 07:39 pm |
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WOO HOO!!!
I did my super intense workout today, tacking on another minute for a total of 13 minutes. It felt great! And now it is totally out of the way.
I am going out to a party tonight, and I am ready to dance my #%@&! off. I already know what I am going to wear, basically, and it is basically going to be like a fuzzy peach bikini with some desert-ravey looking boots I am very excited! I think I am going to try and do the Blade Runner make-up too (I think that looks so cute!)
And in other news, I am going to my parents' house to have my brilliant IT father check out my CPU because it's been making a weird noise.
So far today I had
1) a plum and some beef jerky upon waking around 9:00am
2) an egg/cheese/avocado dish with Tapatio around 11:00am.
My plan is to go tan, take a shower, go visit my parents, then come home, relax, and get ready for that party. Ironically, the name of the partner is Plump! lol, go figure! All those raver burner chicks and dudes are usually anything but plump!
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Posted: 28 September 2008 03:21 am |
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So how many sweeties do you have? Sounds like you are a pimp mama.
Hey if you got it flaunt it!
Congrats on the weight loss! Thats awesome. How come you don't have any pictures posted? I'm curious about that outfit...Peachy fuzzy bikini wth? Sounds kinky.
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Posted: 28 September 2008 11:57 pm |
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haha, well i got one more sweetie at the party last night, so that brings the Sweetie Count up to 5. There's pretty much always basically like a core of 3 and then peripherals get added on or removed depending on what's going on. As Big Daddy Kane would say, pimping ain't easy!
I don't have any pictures posted because I don't really have any recent body shots of me and you can't tell much about the body from the face, you know? The most recent one I have of me that's a body shot is from several years ago, so it's pretty much worthless as far as knowing what I look like now. Last night though, one of the promoters for the party took my picture while I was standing on this giant swing they had there, so that is a body shot . If I can somehow track it down, I could post that, although I probably have a goofy look on my face because I was trying really hard to balance on the swing and get used to how it moved.
That party last night was really fun. I saw a woman there that has the best butt I have ever seen in my life, and it was one of those butts you basically have to be born with, you can't work out to get it and you can't eat to get it. She was a black chick with one of those great big luscious bubble butts. Man, I love those! She was wearing these great fuzzy pink hot pants, and when she walked by, I said "Girl, did you know you have a world class booty?" She got a little embarrassed but pleased look on her face and she told me that actually yesterday she had been getting really down on herself about her body, thinking she was too fat, and she said that she had prayed a little prayer asking to feel better about her body as it was, and she was really happy that I had told her that and she felt like that was the answer to her prayer. It was actually really cool. It was a great butt though--I stood behind her on the dance floor for a while just mesmerized by its beautiful jiggling.
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Posted: 29 September 2008 12:03 am |
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And WOO HOO! Since yesterday I lost another .69 pounds of fat, and lost a quarter inch from my hips, which brings the grand total to a loss of 2.01 pounds and 1.25 inches in just four days! This plan is amazing. Today is my off day, so I am probably going to have some pizza tonight from Rafallo's (the best pizza in LA!!!) and probably have some wine and chocolate and stuff. I couldn't be more pleased!
Oh, and also, here's another little aside from that party which made me feel good about myself...
There was this dude there that was probably the hottest dude in the place, just speaking of physical attractiveness. I noticed him right away but did not approach him. Later, I saw him sitting outside with an Asian girl in his lap and as I was passing by, he shoved the Asian chick off of him and pointed at me and said "This is your seat now," and patted his leg. Now, obviously, the dude is a complete prick to treat people the way he does, dismissing and commanding women, treating them with such utter disrespect, so I didn't sit in his lap, BUT I was thinking that usually a man who is that beautiful and arrogant and that much of an #%@&! USUALLY picks women for himself that he thinks are supergreat arm candy, right, because he thinks he should only be seen with gorgeous women because he think's he's so great himself, SO that was at least a nice compliment to me. Although I must emphasize that seeing what he did and how he acted, I think he was a jerk and doesn't deserve to have anyone sit on his lap, no matter how hot he is.
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Posted: 29 September 2008 12:13 am |
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Girl I love your confidence. Can you give some of it to me?
Bubble butts ARE hot...I'm working to get one...but it just ain't happenin!
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Posted: 29 September 2008 02:30 am |
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I just talked to Larry David in the Trader Joe's parking lot! I am NOT going to Trader Joe's again on Sunday afternoon by the way, parking is always pretty hairy over there but on Sunday afternoons it's crazy, it's like a video game or something, jammed, everybody waiting snaked in their cars all through this tiny, cramped parking lot, people have problems backing out, people blocked in, etc.
But anyway, I was sitting in park in my car waiting for a spot to open up, any spot, and then some chick started walking toward her car. Larry David pulled into the parking lot and rolled down his window and asked me if I was waiting for that spot, and I said I was waiting for ANY spot, and he smiled and motioned like "it's all yours" and then the girl pulled out and somebody swooped in from the other side and took the spot and then Larry looked over at me and made a sympathetic like "awww" face and I just kind of shrugged and smiled wanly like "oh well f..ck it!"
It was pretty cool and he was real nice, real polite.
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Posted: 29 September 2008 02:32 am |
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| Also, the perfect bubble butts are sort of genetic, I think, sort of like breasts, you know? I know I will not be able to get a butt like hers. Whew! She's the stuff that fantasies are made of!
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Posted: 29 September 2008 02:56 am |
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Ah yes...I will have my boobs done. I am not adverse to plastic surgery.
Who is this Larry person?
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Posted: 29 September 2008 03:10 am |
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I am not opposed to it either, per se.
Larry David is the creator of Seinfeld an the creator/star of Curb Your Enthusiasm.
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Posted: 29 September 2008 03:36 am |
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| oh my so you are runnin with the big wheels
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Posted: 29 September 2008 03:38 am |
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I don't know if I'd say that, it was just a cute little exchange in the parking lot, but it was exciting to see him and have that little experience.
Looking great in that new pic you posted.
Incidentally, i love a man with a big butt, and they are hard to find! So you've really scored lol!
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Posted: 29 September 2008 03:45 pm |
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Okay, so yesterday was my free day to eat anything I wanted, and I sure did! I ate almost a whole medium pizza by myself, had some Ben and Jerry's Cherry Garcia ice cream, some taro chips, beef jerky, a plum, and something else in the morning and now I seriously can't remember what it was because I had SUCH a bad nicotine hangover from smoking like 16 cigarettes in two days when I am not generally a smoker but it sounded good while I was out so puff puff
So, anyway, I was a bit nervous about getting on the scale this morning because I didn't know how much damage the pizza and ice cream had done. I am pleased to report that of course the scale did go up, but I still have a net loss, even after that delicious white carb laden day, of .70 pounds of fat. That is .70 pounds of fat lost in 5 days! That made me really happy.
This morning I had an organic nectarine, some green tea, and some raw almonds for my first meal and I have packed a bunch of healthy stuff for work. No white carbs for another 6 days, but amazingly enough, I am not craving them. That is the other thing I was a little scared about re: the free day. I know that usually when you eat white carbs, you crave white carbs. But it looks like the one day wasn't enough to bring back the cravings--or it may be that the weird stuff they put in processed foods is what makes you crave things and a lot of processed food is white carbs. For my pizza, I ordered from Rafallo's because I THINK their food is less processed than major chains like Pizza Hut or Dominoe's (plus, Rafallo's tastes better) and for my ice cream I chose Ben and Jerry's because not only do they have awesome flavors, but none of their products come from animals that have been treated with Recombinant Bovine Growth Hormine (rBGH) and so the ice cream is much more natural than some other brands of ice cream.
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Posted: 29 September 2008 10:34 pm |
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You lucky dog.
IF i would have eaten all of that I would be 5 lbs heavier by now.
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Posted: 30 September 2008 02:58 am |
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I was real happy, AND I have been cool today, not craving carbs or sugar or anything. Here's what I ate today:
Morning: green tea, nectarine, raw almonds
Mid-morning: chili, prunes (sounds gross but there was probably about 30 minutes between those two items!)
Noonish: chili with avocado (I grazed on the chili really for the rest of the afternoon because I felt really full at lunchtime and didn't eat that much of it).
Afternoon: aforementioned chili, some more prunes
Post-workout: prunes, cottage cheese & avocado with Tapatio
For my workout I did 14 minutes of a combination of jumping rope, mountain climbers, mountain jumpers, squats, one-armed snatches (sounds like vaginas with arms growing out of them, yuck, or maybe cool, who knows? maybe both), and pelvic lifts. I did a bit of stretching beforehand too.
I felt REALLY tired after my workout, I just laid down on the couch after a quick shower and just relaxed for a good five minutes. That is until my thoughts turned all erotic and then I took matters into my own hands lol TMI probably but oh well, I am sure you are all used to it by now.
And I have to say that I feel absolutely fantastic, like my mood is so euphoric, it almost feels like being on a drug, like Ecstasy or something, but mixed with Vicodin so that you are really happy and nice and empathic but also sort of floaty and mellow as well. It's like all the good effects of drugs without all the sh it that came come with it. It's great! Who would have thought that eating healthy would pay off so much?
I am going to a party this weekend, and so I am going shopping for a really cute little lingerie/stripper type outfit to wear. I am not sure about going tonight, because that workout seriously kicked my #%@&!, maybe tomorrow or the next day. And my friend is coming to visit me a bit later, so that should be fun, but this one isn't a sweetie, although he wishes he was. We probably all have some friends like that...
My workday was fabulous too, I got a lot of work done and just felt perfectly integrated in everything I did. Awesome!
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Posted: 30 September 2008 03:09 am |
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| I am thinking about buying lingerie. I am just having a hard time figuring out where to buy it. I guess I should go to fredericks of hollywood or victorias. I don't have much experience buying nighties and what not but I figure it would be a nice thing to do for my hubby to be. He is into all the sexy lingerie . Any suggestions? Also keep in mind am a bit self conscious about my body....not really feeling my big legs.
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Posted: 30 September 2008 03:27 am |
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Yeah, Fredericks and Victoria's Secret have all kinds of cute things. And what dude DOESN'T like lingerie? I mean come on, they all love it, they can't get enough of it!
I live in Hollywood so on Hollywood Boulevard there is like a whole row of stripper/hooker shops or whatever that carry all sorts of sexy outfits with all the accessories, collars and gloves and boots and arm-sleeves and hats and everything, that's where I am going to go, but you can totally find some really sexy erection-inspiring stuff at Victoria's Secret or Frederick's. Frederick's tends to be a little trashier if you like that (which I do!)
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Posted: 30 September 2008 03:32 am |
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My problem is finding things that fit in the bust area.
My bra size seems to be difficult to find. That is the main reason why I have never done the whole "sexy lingerie" thing.
Victoria secrets stuff is for the smaller busted woman. Fred's women have ta tas
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Posted: 30 September 2008 03:34 am |
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Straylight wrote:
Oh YES! Praise the gods, when I got on the scale this morning, I found that I had lost .66 pounds of PURE FAT since yesterday! I am so glad I have that scale that measures body fat as well as pounds. 2/3 of a pound in just one day! And I know it was FAT, not water or muscle! WOO HOO!!!!
I also took my measurements this morning and my waist is 32.5 inches and my hips are 42.25 inches. Sheesh, talk about hourglass--it's hard for me to find pants that fit. Any pants that fit over my big fat #%@&! are too big around the waist. Somebody told me that applebottom jeans are good for this type of figure--Costa Rican build all the way.
As an aside, I went into American Apparel and I can always buy shirts there, but pants are a different story. Even the jumbo size don't fit me at all. And my sweetie said
"don't worry their pants aren't made for women with your assets. What they need is a Latin American Apparel."
I thought that was a nice thing to say but really, it would be nice to squeeze this culo into at least the XL stuff at the little white girl shops! Or maybe it just won't ever happen, who knows. They DO need a Latin American Apparel #%@&! it!
Although I am technically a "white girl"....I feel like I can relate more to the latina's body type.
If they ever come out with Latin Am. apparel...I'll be in line.
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Posted: 30 September 2008 04:32 am |
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| Dude maybe we should start it! I bet a lot of girls would be in line.
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Posted: 30 September 2008 04:54 am |
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| I've always wondered why no one does that. Most curvy girls' clothes are UGLY!!! Or they are big in all places instead of just in the areas they need to be big in. Lets call JLO or salma and ask to borrow some moolah for the latin american clothing line. You are out there in hollywood...don't you know somebody that knows somebody
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Posted: 1 October 2008 03:40 pm |
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Dude, that's really not a bad idea. I will put some thought into it...
But on another huge big important note, check THIS out!
(I copied it from a post I made elsewhere...)
I found birthmother's identity! (holy multilation batman!)
Yes, it is true. I had a #%@&! of a day yesterday--I had put up my info on an adoption site several years back, I don't even exactly remember how many, maybe like five or something. And I got an email from some chick named Anne (47) who stated that she knew my birthmother back in the day when they were teenagers. She was three years younger than my birthmother was. This is the first time I have ever gotten any information about my birthmother besides some basic stats like her age, ethnicity, eye color, hair color, etc.
Everything this Anne said matched what I knew in the court records and what was written down by the social workers back when my adoption was going through, and also as she was describing my birthmother, Lia, I was thinking that she sounded a lot like me, so it was really cool and felt neat to hear about how she was, personality-wise and dress sense-wise and all that type of stuff.
However, what was really pretty sad was the fact that my birthmother was evidently murdered back in 1986, in a cornfield in Illinois by some crazy maniac who not only killed her but cut out her female parts and uterus, so he obviously had some major anti-woman issues. He had killed three other chicks in the area and did similar things to their bodies. Dale Anderson was his name, and he was a County Sheriff jailer. He's in prison now. My birthmother was, as I said, one of four victims but for 21 years she was a Jane Doe; some farmer just found her poor body in a cornfield and no one knew who she was so the town just buried her and got her a headstone that said something like "Here Lies Jane Doe, Known Only to God," kinda like the tomb of the Unknown Solider or something like that. But when forensics technology improved, some detective opened the cold case, had the body exhumed and they were able to identify Lia and inform her family.
Here is the link to the story:
http://www.crimeandjustice.us/forums...dex.php
Anyway, according to Anne, and who knows what happened, she thinks, although she was never certain, she thinks that my birthmother's family may have been abusive (several kinds of abusive if you know what I mean) to Lia and Anne said that the picture my birth grandmother painted of Lia was not very nice, saying she was a prostitute and so forth. Who knows if she was or not--if she was, whatever, she wouldn't be the first chick to do that and she won't be the last. It doesn't really bother me that much, hookers are people too just like everyone else. And they probably make more #%@&! money than I do, at least the real high-class call-girl ones anyway, but ANYWAY.... Anne might have been trying to spare my feelings too, she doesn't know me and not that many people want to hear bad #%@&! about their moms. But Anne said that Lia was just like a Hispanic hippie girl who liked to dance and had a really big rack and was sort of a badass, like brave sort of chick (although obviously not badass enough to escape getting killed in the end...) She was 27 when she died, which is younger than I am now, so it's a strange feeling to think that I outlived her like that.
And it really made me feel so lucky that she DID give me up for adoption and gave me such a wonderful family. My adoptive parents are seriously the best parents anyone could ever ask for, I couldn't have hand-picked them better myself. I honesty consider THEM to be my real parents, whatever that term means, because they are the ones who raised me and loved me. I don't remember Lia at all, and it was sad to know that she met with such a bad end, but it made me feel happy that she was able to give me life and had the foresight to give me to a family who had the means to raise me (she was sort of a vagabond, wouldn't have made a good mother, really, never had a stable home or anything). And it also made me feel glad to be a social worker, that I had picked a profession that probably would have made her proud.
So anyway, yeah! WOW!
And on sort of a sweet, mothering note, it was kind of cute, my adoptive mom got really emotional when she heard the story and she got sort of tearful and she said something like
"That's a shame that happened to your mother, that poor girl. And you see, that's why we always tell you be careful when you are talking to strangers, don't be so nice and trusting." (such the mom! like marge simpson ALWAYS!)
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...
And on a completely OTHER note I weighed myself this morning, and WOO HOO!
I have lost 1.01 pounds of pure fat in the last week. That is awesome! I am so excited! And I am so in love with the free day thing! And I am so proud of my #%@&! self because there is a carton of Cherry Garcia in the freezer that hasn't been touched since Sunday. UNHEARD OF! That's like Rush Limbaugh having Oxycontin laying around since Sunday
lol
okay, maybe not anymore
but you know what I mean!
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Posted: 1 October 2008 05:43 pm |
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WOW is right...that is so crazy!! What a horrible way for your mom to die, for anyone to die like that. It sounds like she had a pretty tough life and thought she wanted better for YOU and that is why she gave you up for adoption. It was really nice of her friend to get in touch with you about that.
27 is young....that is the same age my brother was when he died! My thoughts were the same as yours. When I turned 28 I was like "wow I've outlived my brother"....crazy thoughts run through your head sometimes.
How did you feel about hearing all that about your mom? That is really deep stuff. I am not sure how I would have handled it. I think you truly are blessed to have such great parents that love you and have taken such great care of you. I know I feel incredibly lucky to have the parents I have. They have always taken such good care of me and made me feel wanted and loved. I think it is a shame when a child DOESN'T grow up with that.
Awesome news about that 1 loss. Hopefully I can post some similar results later on this week!
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Posted: 1 October 2008 07:24 pm |
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Wow, I'm shocked to hear all that. That sent chills down my back about your birth mother's murder. What a generous person she was to realize she couldn't be the best mother to you and to give you to a couple that are such great parents! Do you feel better now that you know? It sounds like it was probably bitter sweet, because now the search is over, but a little too over. I'm really sorry and happy for you at the same time!
And congrats on the fat loss! Lucky B****!
It was good to hear in my diary that I inspired you to work out!  Maybe after you post later today it will inspire me to work out tonight, and then we'll just get a cycle going
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Posted: 2 October 2008 03:05 am |
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I don't even know exactly how I feel about the whole thing with Lia and the murder. Obviously, I think it was very sad and terrible news, but I am glad to finally know who she was. And it's also somewhat morbidly fascinating and I must admit it felt a little good to have a backstory like that that is so interesting and not just run of the mill.
I am sorry your brother died at 28--what happened if you don't mind my asking?
Sara: yeah--I went and did a pretty hardcore 15-minute workout after you posted that, and I was SOOO happy to be done with it. I was also a teensy bit concerned that I would be exhausted afterward, since I did it in the morning and still had the whole day ahead of me, with work and travel and all that, but I wasn't tired, it just felt good.
And I think that two cups of green tea is my absolute limit. I had three cups yesterday and I felt like I was starting to get real spacey, like my mind was going too fast for the rest of me. I had energy, but felt like a total moron, so, lesson learned on that one.
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Posted: 2 October 2008 03:16 am |
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| okay wow, #%@&! I figured out how to post a picture! so like check it out Attached Image (viewed 197 times):
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Posted: 2 October 2008 04:30 am |
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umm okay, i way had the munchies tonight. Okay, okay, I am still HAVING the munchies tonight, and I am really happy because I have just had some cheese and that's it. I am still good on my deficit and i did not go eat a lot of carbs AND there is Cherry Garcia ice cream in the freeze that I have NOT touched. I am so pleased! WOO HOO! Just need to make it to bedtime!
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Posted: 2 October 2008 04:33 am |
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ah...that was my ex's dad's fav. ice cream. Everytime I would go to their house he would make me a bowl without even asking. He would always say "oh EVERYBODY loves this kind of ice cream...it's impossible to say no". HA
I can't have ice cream in my freezer...so I have to give you the thumb's up for that one.
Pics look awesome!
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Posted: 2 October 2008 04:46 am |
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Dude Cherry Garcia is the #%@&!! You're lucky your ex's dad would give you ice cream. MY ex's Dad would walk around naked, all fat with his gross schlong all hanging out. Because he was a NUDIST man, and we were all supposed to like GROOVE on it MAN, but I didn't like it. I mean please, if we have to look at it, make it look nice at least, fckn a!
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Posted: 2 October 2008 04:51 am |
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Wow...a nudist huh? Why does it seem that the people with the nasty bodies are the ones that go around showing it off the most?
I used to catch HBO and you know how they always have those shows about "hookers in hawaii" or "taxi cab confessions" or "real sex" well I was watching one of those shows and they had these couples that were "Swingers"...hey thats their business, but I did notice they were all older, saggy, and overweight. I'm not trying to say anything BAD about it...it was just something I took note of. I was wondering where the hot swingers are...I guess those are the ones that make the porn movies
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Posted: 2 October 2008 05:52 am |
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I guess, I KNOW! I want to go to THOSE parties--where are they? I don't know, Burner parties and raves can sorta be like that, but not prima facie and not all the time. Actually, I don't know if I would really be cool in an orgy, I've never been in one and it just seems like I would get nervous in the end. I've never even had a threesome, I always chickened out, so I probably wouldn't do any better with even more people involved.
I DID go to a cuddle party, but that was nothing like an orgy, everyone's clothes stayed on and it was basically like being in a cuddle puddle at a rave except there was no E and you didn't have to worry about the cops coming.
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Posted: 2 October 2008 06:33 am |
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I never know what to expect when I come in this diary...LOL.
I'm glad you were able to find your mother, Katie. I'm sure that's a burden off of your shoulders.
Cherry Garcia, eh? Never had that, but I have had other Ben & Jerry's flavors, and they are pretty darn good. My sis likes Americone Dream and another one made with coffee, both of which are pretty tasty.
We have a ice cream shop not too far from the house that makes REAL homemade ice cream. It is beyond delicious, but usually results in upset stomach because it is so rich. I love their cake batter ice cream, though - they use real cake batter to make it! LOL
Good job on your progress!
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Posted: 2 October 2008 06:36 am |
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| Hahaha, a cuddle party? That sounds fun! And you're sooo pretty! I would post a pick too, but I'd be worried that someone I know would find this site and go through my diary... ya know?
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Posted: 2 October 2008 06:46 am |
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StuckSara wrote: Hahaha, a cuddle party? That sounds fun! And you're sooo pretty! I would post a pick too, but I'd be worried that someone I know would find this site and go through my diary... ya know?
I've heard of them before, but I've never been to one. It sounds more like a sleepover with a warm, fuzzy and tingly aspect.
I've been concerned, too, about sharing my picture online. Really, though, is it a big deal if someone I know sees me online? They're not apt to find out anything that they don't already know.
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